Amberley

FOR THE FAGS!!!!

2003-10-10T23:38:50Z

yay national comming out day! (did i spell that right...?) and yay to maggie!!! today was my first day eating vegitarian...i think im going to loose tomorrow. i have not self control. and HEY! i have a Gyno appointment next thursday! yay for gynocologists!!! i even get to leave school early and everything. score. leave school early to get felt up by a metal object that looks suprisingly like a duck. anywho. i've decided to have a dream journal because i read at all my older journal entries about my dreams(both online and in other journals)and some i dont even remember...but they're fun trying to picture some of them...so hey! next time i go out i'll be looking for journals. another one...im obsessed with them. and now for an "ACH! AM!" moment...

ACH! AM! moment is...: i was watching the awesomest porno today. the woman was all telling the guy what to do but the best part was what she was saying during sex and such. commentary is a must gentlemen. commentary is a must. (for porn that is...i really dont care if i know whether you're having a good time or not. it's every man for himself in this world...)

so yeah. i also saw a scary one with a 13 year old asian girl in her school uniform and such. i didnt watch much of that one...im no priest.

now i must away...to watch the secret Garden (LOVE THIS MOVIE!) and some Disney. HEY TOMORROW! im applying to wayland CVS. so next time you people go to CVS, stop by mine in wayland by the health food store. i might be able to hook you up with some...service...

I hate things

2003-10-06T16:18:47Z

i hate the new livejournal damnit. i cant add people as my friends cause i dont know how!!! so people im sorry if i dont add you back...i just cant. anywho. this school year has been hard as crap and it hasnt even really been a month yet...or has it? im such a shut in cause of all this homework. and the thing is, it's not even from my two math classes. it's from my LOWER history class. jeez. one of these weeks im just gonna buckle under the pressure. and lately i havent been able to see derek much. i know this is probably annoying to everyone else...i always seem to be around him and talking about him. I'm sorry im a stalker everyone. sometimes i just feel like derek is my oxygen you know...without him i can't breath. and lately since i havent been seeing him a lot i feel like im constantly trying to breath and i cant. it might just be all the work i have to do though... and really derek has been working too. and he's enjoying his work. he's even been getting hit on by lots of women. WEHOO! my boyfriend's considered sexy by more people than me!! yeah!!! anywho...i really have to pee...and i should stop talking about derek. lets take a bathroom break....a breather...

cometchaser @ 2003-09-27T11:37:00

2003-09-27T15:38:43Z

You Are a Perfect Lay!

All sorts of guys long to hook up with you, but your standards are set high.

You don't just give it up to anyone, but when you do...they can't get enough of you!

You have a knack for pleasing and receiving, and sex with you is never boring.

Only problem is ~ they all seem to be falling in love with you...

What Kind of Lay Are You?

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doesnt the girl look like ren from even stevens?

cometchaser @ 2003-07-24T13:16:00

2003-07-24T17:30:51Z

jet lag and laziness have contributed to my not writing in here since i got home from germany. it was probably the most amazing experience to ever happen to me. it changed myu view on how america is, our government, how we view other people, and how they see us. all in all, it's taught me to kindof loath america somewhat like they loath us. and while there, i felt this constant embarrassment for my heritage, for me being an american. i hated myself for living here and i decided that whenever i could get the chance, i would defend their views on america just like i would defend our views as well. when i came home though, i realized how much i missed being here. i missed being able to get up in the morning and eat whatever i wanted without feeling like i has to make excuses for how much of a pig i was. all in all, Germany and Home are amazing. wherever you go you can find ways to love it. i love my home cause it's my home, a place i can return to. and i love germany because of it's beauty and the experiences i had there. I learned more than i thought i would and im glad i went. i really dont know what im trying to express here, my emotions and thoughts all come together and i dont know how to put them into words. I missed my friends here and now i miss the friends i made back in germany. and soon lizzie will be out here to tell us all about religion again. lol Love you all loads! gooday and brian, Ich habe auch mit zwanzig madchen gefickt. bwahahahahahaha!

oh dear virgin mary...

2003-05-29T19:51:58Z

Your Tongue's Talent is Giving Head!

Your thick, wide tongue is the perfect size and shape for giving him pleasure. Not to mention, you know just how to work all the curves.

You'll do just about anything to make others happy, and when you're uncomfortable, you don't like to say so.

So that probably means your mouth is starting to get worn out. Slow down, and learn how to speak your mind!

You'd be most compatible with a Nipple Sucker. They're sure to give you the attention you so desperately need.

You've been giving everything for so long that you forgot what's it's like to be pleasured. It's time for you to lay back and get licked.

What's Your Tongue's Talent?

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holy....shat....that's so gross and not called for. i dissaprove. but at least annelies and i are compatable....

Turtles....mmmm....

2003-05-11T14:13:11Z

this shall be a dream entry. before i forget the cool dreams that i had last night i'll write them down here. now i dont remember all the details but it was a bad night for dreams...at least funny happy ones. one part I remember which was one of the only kindof funny things in my dream was that people in a zoo (i guess) were trying to get this turtle pregnant. so at first they had another turtle try. and i thought this was natural. then! they had people do it! it was so gross! guys were hopping on and off like mad! at one point the turtle turned into a woman...so i guess it was ok that ONE TIME. i dont know why i dreamed that. then i was a buisnessman (?) and this evil spirit i guess was trying to get something from me and i wouldnt give it to him then he told me to look up and i saw something in the sky and all of a sudden it hit the ground in front of me and it was my son (?) all horribly folded in half and gross and dead. that was another dream. again i dont know why. and the last one was the best yet scariest one. I was in a huge field and it was sunny and beautiful out. as i was walking around all these ghosts were trying to talk to me and get me to help them (why is this all about ghosts?) but they were being really mean and scary about it. then i saw this little shoe by the lake and when i asked about it someone said it was an old friend of mine who had dissapeared when we were about 14. they never found him. so all of a sudden i went back in time (?) and i saw him get into a fight with some people. apparently when this had happened before i didnt try to help him. so this time i tried to help him and in doing so i did something that would change history. so when he was being chased by the boys he got in a fight with (the boys who were going to kill him) he must have done something differently that got him away from them and lived (i was watching the whole thing...dreamwise). then all of a sudden it was like i was back to the present (which was only like a year or two later) and he was there with another friend of ours in the field just playing. it was so happy and interesting! i know this seems stupid but it was just interesting dreaming all that. anywho. i hope i dont forget that dream.

cometchaser @ 2003-05-02T22:10:00

2003-05-03T02:54:36Z

Everyone, I love you so much. at Coffee House tonight I found out that the proceeds would go to the Steven Richard Memorial fund. at first i was really sad after hearing this then i got over it. and i realized what wonderful friends I have. and how much I love and need them. If I end up dying young like Steve, please dont say it was a shame that I was so young and how I could have done something. I know i've lived more than some who deserve it more than me and I know I lived it well. dont feel like my death is a shame. Don't feel bad for my family. I love you guys! thank you for being there for me! and expecially Derek. I love you so much sweetie I dont know how you put up with me. don't be jealous of jaime or anyone else. you're the one I love and choose to be with. if i liked anyone else i wouldnt be with you. wow this is stupid and depressing. but anywho moral of the story is: I love and need everyone around me. even the people I hate. and i Love derek.

and there you have it kiddies. my journal entry...aint it hott?

cometchaser @ 2003-03-31T19:54:00

2003-04-01T00:59:07Z

I now know what my tatoo is going to be!!! im going to get a colorful peace sign with my social security number under it. that way, if i get murdered and they find my body before i decay, they will know who i am!!!! YAY!!! i'm going to get it on the cave of my back...sexy...anywho. i really dont know what to say. Matt Neff IM'ed me today...i was like....hey matt neff...and we talked about how im kinda into punk yet im still a poser and he was like "that's ok....i remember those days..." it twas kinda funny. then he left me. OH WELL!!! now im in a punky mood...so im listening to the dropkick murpheys and the punk compilation...I LOVE THE WORLD!!! BUT FUCK THE WAR!!!!!

Beautiful

2003-03-27T21:08:23Z

Lizzie, You are sucha beautiful person. I wish i could sympathize with a fish dying...i mean...if i really concentrated on it i could be sad. but if i just think for a split second that a fish died i'm like "That's nature". but when steve died i was devastated and i didnt think it was natural. maybe we're the fish to god? never know...I did sympathize with a bubble the other day though. I was in science and we were watching a movie on sedimentary rocks and it showed acid being bubbly and reacting with calcium carbonate on a rock and all the bubbles formed into one huge one. I thought to myself when i watched it "That bubble should pop...i want it to pop" then when it did...i got so depressed. and i was depressed for the whole class. it was amazing and i thought i was going crazy. blah...I also turned Lover/Stalker lately to Someone who i will not mention on a public site. but anywho. I believe i shall leave with the immortal words said by me..."I'm a Goldfish" *flails arms*........

1-2-3-4 WE DONT WANT YOUR OIL WAR! 5-6-7-8 STOP THE VIOLENCE, STOP THE HATE!!

2003-03-20T20:38:54Z

There was a walk out today. about 200 people in our school came out and walked to town center with signs and shouting for peace. i got 2 cut slips and 5 detentions for walking out. it was amazing. It was so much fun. we sang stuff like "peace is patriotic", "support our troops, send them home", "war, what is it good for", "books not bombs", "what do we want? PEACE! when do we want it? NOW!!"....etc. even a hebrew/arabic song was in there. props to sam for the jewish contribution. it would have been soo much more fun if the pro war people werent there though. they were right next to us waving the flag like we were against everything american. "Land of Liberty" jesus...dont they know peace is what america is about? not anymore i guess...we got so arrogant and stupid it's like we think we're god and everyone should do what we say. ugh i could go on for hours about that...all i know is that im truly scared. the thing that makes me scared more than anything are people who are for it. my brother started laughing and dancing when he found out they were boming Iraq...i just looked and him and i just wanted to hide and cry. I am at a point where i feel like the world is going to end and the war is going to do dig our graves and even put us in them.

The only thing i can do know is fight for peace, maybe someone will hear our cries over the bombs...

woo i like this one...

2003-02-09T00:49:15Z

You are red. You are impure, but noble. You are precious and true to yourself and others. When you love, you love entirely, and will do anything to make your love happy. You are sure of your identity, therefore, you cannot change others or be changed. You are a true prince, you may be forgotten, but without you, none of us could go on.

What inner color are you?

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If i were a stoner...this would be me...

2003-02-09T00:36:18Z

You are a pot smoking veteran! You've been smoking
since you're highschool days and you either own
a bong or have a constant stash somewhere in
your house. You smoke so much that when you
check the couch cushions you find a joint you
didn't know you'd lost. If you are 19 or below
the age of 19 and you've reached this response,
please slow down a tad we want you to be able
to remember you name when you're 30!

What kind of pothead are you?
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GROWL....IM A BEAR...

2003-02-09T00:31:47Z

Bear

What Is Your Animal Personality?
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Are YOU Sexy?

2003-02-08T14:47:20Z

this is my very own version inspired by the writers of Cosmogirl.

write down your answers so you can see how sexy you are!!! this is written in a girls perspective so if you're a guy....pretend...

you look in the mirror and realize your ass doesnt end and your thighs seem to grow out from it.you...
A) Throw on some granny panties, some baggy pants and a baggy sweatshirt. No guy will look twice at you and you dont care. who needs 'em anyways?

B) put on the butterfly thong you bought yesterday, some so-tight-you-can-see-my-stretchmarks jeans, and a tube top that shows off your not so lucious curves. damn, you look...large.

C) aha, look at it wobble...

D) cannot answer this question. it does not compliment the lucious curves you behold.

You walk down the stairs to see your crush leaning cockily at your front door. you...

A) dont have a crush. you dont need some guy using you like some posession. so what if you're alone forever? I can always masturbate.

B) wobble up to him smiling. then start sucking on your finger like it was a hot dog....wait, no...thats just the grease from last night's dinner left underneath your fingernail...mmm....hot dogs....

C) hehehe...COCKily...

D) slide up to him and smile sweetly you sly slut you.

Jordan, the guy you're crushing on and blocking your front door, asks you if you would like a ride to school with a smile. you...

A) say "No thank you, I have legs and I can walk" even though he has a Porche and it's below 0 outside. Who is he to think you fawn over him like every other girl in school? besides, his 9" penis is probably diseased and freakish anyway.

B) say "Of course!!! as long as we can stop half way so I can...rest" still sucking on your finger, while silently praying that he doesnt get lost in your massive vagina like poor old stevie.

C) Shout "SHOTTY!!!" and run mistakenly to your bike and honk the horn a few times.

D) copy his smile and agree. then slip slowly past him.

While at school you notice Jordan staring at you all day smiling the whole time. you...

A) run into the bathroom and check to see that your sweatshirt and pants are baggy enough. nothing makes you madder than some guy checking out your curves.

B) Suck on your finger again cause you're so damn hungry.

C) check to see if it's really him or Jesus again. look there goes the monopoly guy...

D) Stare right back.

During the last bell of the day Jordan comes up to you and asks you if you wanted to go to Sex Point, the ultimate Orgy. you...

A) Ask if that Red head who sits in front of you in english will be there. you know that if you get bored she'll be there to bitch about men with you.

B) say "SURE!" because it's you're favorite place to be, and they also have the best pastries.

C) ask if the munchies are good there.

D) tell him that group things dont really do it to you but he does, and invite him over for a study session.

THE END!! tally up your answers to find out how sexy you really are!!!

Mostly A's: The word "Sexy" is as disgusting to you as the word "Cock". In this situation i would say you are a femenist and a lesbian. try it before you get any bad ideas about the cock.

Mostly B's: "Sexy" is how you see yourself. "Fat" is how the rest of the world sees you. My advice to you is that the next time you see a tempting hot dog, it's probably your fat finger. Try a diet, or not eating you fat slut.

Mostly C's: You could me sexy. At this point you're too stoned to tell and we're too uninformed to tell as well. The next time you see look at yourself in the mirror and see jesus, try less grass.

Mostly D's: CONGRATULATIONS!!! you sure know how to work a man and his cock. People may see you as a slut, but it's your appeal without the grease that men love. you didnt even need to take this test to know that you sexy beast!!!

and there it is kids. good enough for cosmo??

und jetzt...fur...MICH!!! for those of you who dont speak german...that was german. i slept lots of much last night and am well rested to go to jaime's and then to "Tommy". people cancelled baby sitting so im going home...to be alone...anywho. MOLLY IS GOING TO BE HERE IN SEVEN DAYS!!! SEVEN DAYS!!! AHHH!!!!!!!!!! I CANT WAIT!!!! and lizzie....get your skinny butt to sudbury so you can see her too!!! I HAD THE WORST DREAM LAST NIGHT!!! AHHH!!! i dreamed that i had....A PENIS!!! it was HORRIBLE!! i mean i had a vagina too...BUT I HAD A PENIS!!!! and i actually could feel it. it was so horrible. and!!! i met this hott guy in my dream...and we were about to have sex when all of a sudden...I WAS EXCITED...it was traumatizing. i had to turn him down!!! THE ONLY TIME IN MY LIFE WHERE I CAN HAVE SEX WITHOUT BEING CRITICIZED AND I HAD TO TURN HIM DOWN BECAUSE I HAD AN EXTRA APPENDADGE!!!!! ugh...i woke up and i almost cried. may i never have a penis...

dreams

2003-02-01T19:08:17Z

"Don't pull your dick out till she asks...or till she's sleeping! Bong"-jays angel on his shoulder.

IM GOING TO GERMANY ALL!!!!!! MY DAD FINALLY SAID YES TO HAVING ANNELIES' PARENTS PAYING FOR ME!!!! IM GOING SOMEWHERE OUT OF THE COUNTRY!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!

and in other news...i had the weirdest dreams last night. The first thing i remember is im having sex with derek (i havent had sex yet all...im just saying this is my dream) and then when we're...you know...done...i tell him i realized halfway through it that i was having sex and then he looked at me and he said "we werent having sex...i was eating you out..." and that was weird...then i told him he should go home really quick cause it was the morning and he would get in trouble again. then annelies was over...and thats all i can remember from that dream. then! i fell asleep again after waking up for a while and i dreamed that...shit i cant remember now...dern it. BUT!!! the other day i had a dream that i was in the car with my dad and when i looked behind the car A GOLDFISH WAS FLYING BEHIND US!!! it wasnt scary but it was cool. i took pictures of it flying by our windows and everything. it was the best dream i've ever had. yay!!! flying goldfish!!! anywho. my head hurts from sleeping too much. i have Mono, which tells me i have to sleep more and be rested, yet when i sleep more than i normally do, I GET HEADACHES!!! my body sucks. I MISS YOU LIZZIE AND MOLLY!!!! GET OVER HERE NOW!!!!!! AHHH!!! IM GOING TO GERMANY!!!!!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! GET READY YOU FOREIGNERS!! I CANT SPEAK GERMAN WELL!!!! yayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayay!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anywho...i should go now and get dressed...LOVE YOU ALL CAUSE IM GOING TO DEUTSCHLAND!!!!!!

mmmmm.....hair.......

2003-01-12T23:01:39Z

bills ciggs hurt my throat so it's not better by now. god damn ciggarette industry. i would burn it if it weren't for the fumes it would emmit. so i find out i think i have to read all of Catcher in the Rye by tomorrow cause we read it like all last week. so i should go...love y'all.

sickies

2003-01-12T14:40:33Z

hey all. havent been writing cause i just havent had anything to say. i dont really go out anymore so and when i do get invited it's when i finally made plans to do something. so f'ing hell. anywho. im so god damned bored right now. hence all the swearing. i've been sick all week with Strep Throat and Mono so i cant go out and do something even if it isnt with people. and im tired, im supposed to sleep yet i have to take a pill every 4 hours which keeps me awake. and i have an essay to write and lots of homework to do!!! yay!!!! i love getting sick before midterms. teachers trying to cram new things in while piling more homework on you to make sure you know what they taught the first day of school. lalalalalala. at least im feeling better. a little bitter...but better!! i should be in school tomorrow but i still have to pop some pills at the certain times. i hope i dont get in trouble for doing that. and i realized how..."fragile"...i am. im so paranoid that someone'll hit me where im not supposed to be hit and i'll just die. gah!! scary. i've been watching so much t.v. i hate it. i wanna read something yet the books i ordered havent come yet and BOTH shipments should have come by now. ahhhh......so now im done venting. i miss everyone so much!!! and yes...i miss school. the coolest thing is im excused from my gym class till febuary...which some to think of it isnt that far away so im not missing much. and i think it's only yoga im missing. i dont feel like wearing clothes...all in favor of amber going to school nekkie say aye!!! yet...i would wear slippers to keep my feet warm. and maybe i'll wear a robe. or pajamas....so i wont be COMPLETELY naked...ah nevermind. whats the point of going to school naked wearing clothes???? alright i should go....no one's online and they're boring me. LOVE YOU ALL!!! i miss you.

My final goodbye...

2002-12-12T00:08:18Z

i went to the funeral today during school in one of the L.S. vans. when i got there and after i was seated people kept coming in. some people had to stand throughout the whole ceremony. the only song that started me into crying was this one where someone played the guitar and sang this song from Steve's perspective. the whole ceremony made me want to cry. but i held it it...im suprised i was able to. the pastor told stories about when he went to sunday school and such and read some other memories. another thing the pastor said though almost made me hysterical crying was when he mentioned Evah..."my prayers are with Evah...to whom Steve gave his heart to"...it just stuck with me. im sorry to everyone who has to read my entries...i havent been a very happy person lately. but whenever i try to think all i can think about is steve and his family and Evah. in a way i really envy them for being such a huge part of his life and i was barely his friend. i always thought him to be one of my best friends...and he told me i was the same...yet you never know. since we barely talked this year...things could have changed. and the fact that his family hadn't even known about me or chris didnt even try to talk to me made it worse. i hate being this selfish...one of my best friends has just died. hannah started singing the "I will remember you" song in science and it stuck with me. and when i came home and listened to it fully it showed exactly how i was feeling...in the exact words that i couldnt get out. so i put it in here in case someone felt the same way. i think every year im going to go to Steve's grave...i just keep feeling like i owe him something. well now to make myself a little happier and go read Harry Potter and drool...

and again...Steve, im sorry and i love you

cometchaser @ 2002-12-11T18:43:00

2002-12-11T23:44:28Z

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories.

i miss you...

cometchaser @ 2002-12-10T19:36:00

2002-12-11T00:41:28Z

i went to the wake tonight...it was amazing and sad at the same time. it seemed like everyone in sudbury was there. and more people came every second. i waited in line for about an hour till i got to his coffin...it was an open casket. they had buried him in his hat, ghostbusters shirt, ghostbusters pillow, and his car keys. i met Evah and his family. i couldnt stop crying. and even people who didnt know him were crying. after i saw him and said my prayers i just couldnt stay any longer so adam and i left. i've been crying ever since. sorry to everyone that i havent written in a while but i just couldnt bring myself to talk about anything but steve. he looked so different...i should be off...i cant stop crying...

i love you Steve...rest in peace.

cometchaser @ 2002-12-07T18:39:00

2002-12-07T23:46:08Z

For Steve

The Irony of it all

Your wish came true,

Only when you stopped wishing it to.

I find peace in knowing,

That my goodbyes were said.

And the only thing i have to face

Is knowing you're gone.

May you rest in peace

cometchaser @ 2002-12-01T15:03:00

2002-12-01T20:04:29Z

What box do you get put in?
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mmm...japenese culture....

cometchaser @ 2002-12-01T13:56:00

2002-12-01T18:57:27Z

Which Sesame Street Muppet's Dark Secret Are You?
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oh yes...i wanted to be bert and ernies gay love secret though...

HOLY MOTHER OF ALL THINGS HOLY!!!!

2002-12-01T18:17:25Z

Which Harry Potter Guy are you Most Compatible with?
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OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HE'S SO DEAD SEXY. I CANT BREATH...I CANT BREATH....OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

er toller kerl ist hier!

2002-11-15T20:47:32Z

yay! derek is here. but he's in the loo. MOLLY! i read angus thongs and like annelies thought IT'S SO YOU!!!! i miss you so much. it was so much like your life and you that i thought it WAS you! only you dont have a huge nose...you have a cute buttony one:) and liz! get back here! i miss you and bitty...i wish i could just have him on my shoulder again. i cant really talk much cause im waiting to go to a movie and derek is here and i need to entertain. but i shall come on and talk later. and annelies molly might come to visit us in like febuary maybe. i dont know.

talkies later!